I know you understand and I thank you for that.
Do not detain me.
usually if i am fortunate enough to go to a celebration, function of some sort, or an outing of any sort, i have spent time calculating my ability to do so.
After calculating each aspect if i dont think it is wise to go i dont. (Sorry if i have missed your event.)
Amoung these calculations are time limits. Calculations of how much energy i currently have and how long that energy will last. i dont quess. i know from experience. i know activity, temperature, and stressors all have a part.
To get to my point.
If I make it to the event, thank you for inviting me and/or greeting me, but If I am leaving ,no matter how soon, please do not detail me. If I am leaving it is because i have almost used up all my reserves. i have calculated the amount left is just enough to get me home safely. I dont mean to be seemingly rude but i will be exact and to the point about leaving because i will not have the luxary of spending more ability trying to go. please forgive me in advance. when i have nearly exhausted my abilities my thought process is usually the first to misfire so i may say things wrong. again please forgive me and let me go.
i love you all so very much but need your understanding. or not. i just needed to say these things about who i am now.
Just me…
